You know what? Im backsliding. Yeah no joke.

Many reasons, firstly its because i've really seen the shit that christians(that i know of) do. My faith isnt that strong as it used to. Its hard to believe anything all those people say anymore. Really, i've been through and seen a hell lot of hypocritical assholes who act godloving on stage but a douche in real life. And secondly, its really because i myself is not a good christian either. What Kj said about me last year, they are all true. I curse, i hate on stuff, i listen to Marilyn Manson, i smoke( abeit 1 one stick ) I don't see the point you know? I go to church on sundays, but im just lying to myself and God.

I dun sing, i dun listen to christian songs. And to be honest, Marilyn Manson's song 'Antichrist Superstar' is catchy as hell. And its a good song. Im not gonna stop listening to all these music i like. I still believe in the guy up there. But imma gonna do it my own way.

Cus honestly, how many people who goes to those megachurches actually go for the service. I dare say a good 70% of the youth goes there only for their friends.

If someone like Marcus can backslide, i guess i lasted long enough.

Too serious of a post uh? Peace out

Went to Jeston's party yesterday. Had fun, met up with a lot of ppl i havent see for a long time. Elson, Xinyong. And fk the virgin puff lol i smoked a whole stick. I owe one stick. Will pay back one >;)

Jeston's tv is huge or what lol

If being a Christian means listening to only christiany music. Bring my ass to hell.

Random thought came up just as i was listening to some Marilyn manson tracks and i realized i dun have half a christian song in my music files. Hey whats better? I listen to christian songs and still commit sin ahem*pre-marital sex*ahem or i listen to what i like and try my damndest to live out a christian life. Hmmmmmmm they say that hell's not hot

' You were from that perfect world, that world that threw me away today '
- Coma White, Marilyn Manson

Gosh i feel so emo. I dun even know why. I wanna smoke and all that pretty stuff. Recently came across Meekakitty on youtube. Gosh shes so cute. I like girls like that. They are good looking but they act like dorks cus they dun give a fuck what others say. They dun nid to fit the mold of a 'proper' girl.



She looks great too. Gah.

I dunno why, i should be feeling sad but the video of Jason Russells(that kony 2012 guy) naked and strutting around in public cracks me up bad. Its hilarious gosh. Im going to hell for that

Alrighty will blog again soon. Just a quickie before a go to bed

Hmph. How long has it been since i blogged.

I wanna rant about something. Like how i busted $700 on impulse. So i was watching vids on youtube and i came across a comment 'thunderbirds/firebirds seem to be popular in with marilyn mansons guitarists'. Yeah, ive no idea why but there was this one time years ago if i didnt have the Firebird, i would kick a baby and god would kill a kitten. I still sucked back then and i busted $700 away just cus i was so into Marilyn Manson at the time and i loved Tim Skold. Great guitarist.

The guitar is heavy as hell. It looks pretty but its shape is impractical, with a larger lower horn, every time my hand is off the neck the guitar dives down and its hard to play standing up. Yeah, i regretted. Esp now im G.A.S-ing again. God those telecasters look so pretty.

Guitar aside, these few days were great. Almost everyday i have someone over and we would play Naruto. I just bought it and unlocked all the characters already. Damn fun when i had Lc, Lucas and Bryan come over. Wanted to jio Elson but his phone no batt so he didnt got the message. I pretty much got all the games i wanted already. My remaining pay will all go to clothes i think. I wont get a guitar until i improve leaps and bounds. I can't even play scales now. But when i do im busting on a high end made in japan one. hehe

Last week of work this week. Im on full slack mode. IDGAF if i fk up. What are they gonna do? FIRE ME? AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS

Until i learn a scale. Peace. Nah wait, that ll mean this is my last post ever.

PEACE

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TADAIMA. Back from home after a long day's work. Bathed, had supper. Awesome. Its cool cus i can really feel the effects. Its all coming back again. I bringing back the workout routines from back when i had a crush on this person. Not to that extent but i have work so im not eating a lot anyway. I didnt feel shag after 11 hours of work sia.

Work was pleasant today. This one particular customer made me damn happy. I swear Caucasians are some of the more polite people. At least Caucasians that come to this restaurant. I merely got some serviettes for them and they were spamming Thank You Very Much and even bowing when they took it from my hands. Damn. Thats manners and respect man.

Not every Singaporeans are like that but this ONE time. This ONE customers. He was like a poly/jc student. Around that age. He looked down on me cus i was merely a labour worker there. Well, fk you. Im earning my own cash to buy my own shit. Im studying Law and well on my way to University. Can't judge a book by its cover. You can for some. But in his face man. Hah!

Always a joy serving the foreign customers.
Peace

Alrighty. Lovin my lappy. I havent got wireless internet nor do i know how to set up my modem with my lappy but im getting by using the 'personal hotspot' function of my phone. It works. Awesome. And here i am bloggin with my lappy.

No regrets. The stuff with webcam is also awesome. I can skype with the guys already.

The IT fair was fun. Accompanying Yuanhe to go get his lappy as well. Its such a coincidence both him and KMS both emptied their banks, spent all their hardearned pay and bought the same exact ASUS model. Lol! So coincidental sia. But nice la, everyone has their own distinctive models. Was kinda hoping Lim would buy that Eee PC thing from ASUS hahas

Alright, just a lil update and thoughts. Till next time. PEACE =))

So i finally got my laptop. Its a SONY VAIO S series. Im prolly the only dufus in this world stupid enough to buy a laptop based on how pretty it looked.

I didnt regret though. It was a tad bit expensive at $1.5k. Fengyuan was working at ASUS and he recom one at around 1.3k and Ryan advised me to get something 1.2K or below. True. But im intending to use this for school and a little of gaming (Final Fantasy 14 Online and TERA. TERA got my attention). So busting that extra amount of worth it. Plus, it looks gorgeous and is red. Another extra bonus was the carrying case it came with. It was this nice brown colour and i guess i lucked out cus it was a complete match with my new poly bag. Hahas.

Alright awesome lappy is awesome. Till next time. Peace out

Woah. Finished 12 hours of work yesterday. My body has gotten used to the tough work. I mean i wasnt dead tired last night. Still tired but i wasnt fking hyperventilating and crying like the first time i did it.

And i've been picking up a habit of drinking Fundango etc before i work, basically to pump myself with sugar so i have more energy but i've been cutting it since last Friday, so i can pass the urine test later on. And im actually more efficient without it. Hah! I didnt fk up at work at all yesterday. I had to do table setting and restaurant opening 2 times and restaurant closing and i still didnt screw up and i finished on time. Lesson learn. Fundango fks you up. Im sticking with my one and only. Pepsi. BEST IN THE WORLD

What else? Enrolment is a bitch. I hope i get everything settled by today. Then i'll have a peace of heart and start to go gym without worries.

Aight. Until i pass my urine test. Peace out. And if i never blog again, it means i failed lolololololololololololol. Jk, most prolly i'll bitch about it if i fail. I fking hate the Bedok SATA already. Poor service, inefficience, all around sucking hard. Aight, PEACE

Alright i totally forgotten about this cus the whole enrolment thing ruined my mood. And im sure all of ours. But yes! I can proudly say i've worked for a whole month without throwing in the towel. I'll be working till 31st March i guess. 1 more month. Working gave me the purchasing power to buy most of the stuff i wanted. Blazblue, the White Rock Shooter figma



Bryan somehow found the boxset at HALF PRICE. Now....i still have some games to buy. And im done. Feels shiok buying stuff with your own hardearned money

And no, i have the heart problem but i won't die. I read up on it, its fatal, but im healthy enough to not die yet. And i wont let myself die as long as im a virgin. I CANT die a virgin. I'll never forgive myself. I must get some before i breathe my last

Until next time. Peace

Fml.

So i went for the medical checkup this morning. Originally we had this wonderful plan in which we will rush to the clinic before they open, then rush out our checkup then go gym. Tadah.

But if a plan ever worked out, its not us already. I was late. Jordan was late plus he had stomachache. Lincheng got us lost at the bedok bus interchange. Reached at 9am and we got our queue numbers and it was 60++. So we went for breakfast and slacked around and when we returned it was already at number 50. So far so good lah. Then we registered, queued. Then theres a problem. There were some confusion with the urine test thing and i needed to redo 2 times. I didnt realize until later, apparently i failed cus i got blood in my urine etc etc. I failed it 3 times so i must go back again on another day.

Second, for this doctor's consultation thing. The doctor asked me if i had any issues in my medical history. I replied no and she listened to my heartbeat. For a long long time. Then she told me i had some heart problems. I got shocked la. It was so serious she was gonna refer me to a polyclinic which will then refer me to a heart doctor. Why she doesnt just refer me to the heart doctor? I DUN KNOW.

So after that shit. We wasted the whole morning there already. No gym. Then Lucas and Lc accompanied me to the geylang east polyclinic. This pissed me off so bad. The place was so inefficient we were told to go to this room, go to that room blah blah fuck you. Inefficient is inefficient. This isnt helping my heart condition, its fkin worsening it.

I'll skip the details. But i was damn pissed off and even more worried by the end of the visit. Fuck this man.

Poly enrolment is a bitch